tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8369493130283425436.post2122412956061275202..comments2023-11-30T03:01:40.709-07:00Comments on lauralea.ca: Living In A DreamLauraleahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10521054238842667014noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8369493130283425436.post-50006653499402310772012-05-19T14:26:50.473-06:002012-05-19T14:26:50.473-06:00My version seems along the same vein I think, as y...My version seems along the same vein I think, as you were exploring. <br /><br />For you these past years with diabetes, food has become a poison to you. The food that others might eat and digest normally has the effect on you of trying to kill you. Dead.<br /><br />This past year has been really difficult on you as the conditions of your diabetes has shifted, and now the food you were able to consume as a diabetic, is becoming a poison to you as well. You've been going through these tests to see where the difficulty lies and what you can and can't eat, so that you can regain normal. The great stress of these months for you seems to be resulting in you seeing food differently, more sinisterly. It's become difficult for you to eat anything without doubt, without questioning it's content or what it's final effect will be on you.<br /><br />But this goes deeper, I think, because a part of your identity is that you are really an awesome baker & cook. You've adapted so many foods for people with allergies so that they could enjoy food too, and that's been a good grace to many people. You can sympathize with them and then you rise to the challenge of creating something for them to eat to enjoy too. I know you love doing this. It's a part of who you are.<br /><br />But these days, well it's like all bets are off as you try to manage your health with exercise and food and a few magic pills that without which, you would die. You are tired and your identity is being challenged and yes, you are grappling with a chronic condition that does kill people.<br /><br />And that's just really hard, for your conscious and for your subconscious. <br /><br />I think your subconscious is doing a great job of summing up your current perception of food, that it tastes lovely, looks like nothing bad is in it, but it is out to kill you.<br /><br />It's your subconscious stating what your mind already is living out of.<br /><br />Maybe you've not identified the struggle as clearly as your subconscious seems to have. Maybe there is nothing more to do but to just acknowledge that this struggle is your struggle. Giving room to those dramatic considerations.<br /><br />This is a new and different season to your life and health, and maybe your identity too.<br />But keep being gentle with yourself and give yourself room to feel frustrated and sad and occasionally a bit PO'ed.<br /><br />We'll figure it all out.<br /><br />And now you have it in writing too.<br />:)Randall Friesenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04112919973262687369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8369493130283425436.post-34574121938934565932012-05-19T13:43:42.815-06:002012-05-19T13:43:42.815-06:00I totally agree with your interpretation of the dr...I totally agree with your interpretation of the dream - definitely something that you're putting into your tummy has the power to hurt you. That's the way I see the dream. Now to figure out what that "something" is.Maureenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03295669556574151360noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8369493130283425436.post-64020291119178947812012-05-18T23:08:59.309-06:002012-05-18T23:08:59.309-06:00Or it's my hypochondriacal sub-conscious getti...Or it's my hypochondriacal sub-conscious getting all paranoid on me...Lauraleahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10521054238842667014noreply@blogger.com